world not ready? sometimes i feel i disconnect to fit in the world -- lowering my vibe - tuning out signal unhealed fears of ridicule, abandonment, rejection fully alpha = feel uncomfortable sex energy leeks why im scared of what happens when im fully focussed why not want to be miss understood structure = responsability = comfornting my full potential -- why this is scary to fail in spotlight simulation theory -- divine creator in a simulation -- whats the point ? where my mission comes from